John came to say goodbye tonight. It was easily one of the hardest nights I've gone through. There has never been anyone in my life who has meant as much to me as John does, and it's nearly impossible to let him go. He's been great about it, though. He brought David over today for a few hours which always helps brighten any situation. We sometimes get strange looks like "you guys are too young to be parents..." and now that we both wear promise rings, it looks like we're married. But we always get a laugh out of it. Anyway, we went to the playground and played with David, who loved my kitties, by the way. He sang happy birthday to me, and my heart nearly exploded. It was one of the cutest things I've ever seen. David got picked up, and then it was just us along with my parents in the house. We watched Seinfeld and laughed...well, he laughed...I cried. I just can't get used to the fact that he won't be here, and it is so hard to get through a day without wishing I could see him. I usually could, but now that he's living 4 hours away, that won't be possible. And I think that will be one of the hardest things to get used to. I cried for a good bit of the night. He just held me and told me everything was ok. He really is the most wonderful boyfriend I could have. I know you're probably thinking that's cliche and annoying to read about on a blog, but the majority of the things that remind me God is present always are most obvious to me when I'm with John. He is the most faithful person I've met, and He always brings me closer to God in everything.
I am so blessed. Thank You, God, for John Paul James Lann. I couldn't have asked for anyone better.
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